... since my last post. Some things never change...

So I'm at the midway point of another probable all-nighter (my third? this semester)... and it has occurred to me that I really need to kick this serious procrastination problem. I'm in grad school now, and I'm thinking that I should grow up and take this thing seriously.

As far as an update, I'm nearing the end of my first year in grad school (semester 2 of 5), and I did really well first semester. I was nominated the Gargoyle Society, which is an honor for me. Hopefully they won't kick me out after this semester, cause I don't know how well I'm going to do this time around.

My birthday is on Wednesday, and I guess dA has given me a free week of membership, which I have to say I really miss. But it's hard to justify paying for something that I'm a glorified lurker at. I haven't posted or commented anything in a while. Hopefully this summer I'll find some time to put up new stuff (I have been doing new stuff, really!) and reaquaint myself with the territory.

Well hope everyone is doing well. And hope all you central-illinoisians are enjoying the aftermath of a supposed early spring (= rain and cold).

And still... more work to do.

I'm still alive, I swear. Well techinically, and it's not guaranteed I'll be alive spiritually after this weekend. Maybe I'll be around to update next weekend, maybe not.

Now... on to... work (crap!)

1000+ Views!

So the only time I have time to do with dA anymore is to read comments and check my page views. Luckily I have lots of people who look after me, and apparently, look at me. I checked yesterday, and only had about 990 page views, and this morning... 1,016 views! Only took me like 14 months of being a member. Oh well. I'd like to thank you guys who have befriended me and kept track of me, and have regularly checked back on my work. You know who you are... I don't want to risk missing someone by mentioning them here. You guys rock! Alright, well someday I'll be posting new stuff, and looking at my 228 message center items, and commenting on people's work. Might be Thanksgiving, might be Christmas... we'll see. Thanks again for checking out my stuff, and I hope I dont' dissapoint!

Now... on to... work (crap!)

I love it when I'm able to get up early on weekends... it's so painful to wake up, but it's so nice to have the time. I decided to take the time to do some dishes and check out dA. Piles of deviations to check out, and a few messages.

I've been reflecting on friends lately... I feel like I've neglected, and almost lost so many of the close friends I've had, since I've graduated. I'm not sure if it's just because everyone's adjusting to new lives, or if I'm just negelecting my friends. I really fear losing those who I have held so dear for so long. I really don't think they know how much they mean to me, and I'm not sure how to. I think I'm going to start emailing people (I'm not good on the phone), and just asking people how they are. I miss them all. I think it's part of my personality. I kind of lost touch touch with my closest friends back in high school for a while, because of a girlfriend. When that relationship ended (for the first time, after over 2 years!) I came back to my friends, and most of them were pretty welcoming. A few of my closest were really hurt though, and not shy about letting me know about it. I never even thought that people would be hurt by my not spending time with them. I always figure that people have their own lives and won't really miss me if I go for a while. That's part of the reason why I don't talk to people more often. I feel like they're doing their own thing, and they won't notive my absense. It's not a critique of my friends at all... it's more a reflection of my self-esteem. It's not that I have low self-esteem, or that I don't like myself. Quite the contrary. I guess I just feel that I haven't had that strong an impact in too many people's lives.

Alright enough ranting for now... just nice to get those things out of your head every now and then. I hereby make a pledge to make contact with those who are dear to me, with whom I have lost contact!

Now... on to... work (crap!)

So I finished the last board for the masterplanning phase of my design project (an environmentally friendly community church) for studio, and I don't have to wake up early tomorrow, so I figured I'd go on a dA binge. Man, there's some interested things submitted at 2am... lots of staged suicides and bad amateur porn. I decided to add to the virtual maelstrom, only the second photo I've submitted to be non-architecture.

I want to thank those of you who have become fairly loyal 'checkers' of my pages and work, and say that you really encourage me to try and return here as often as possible to view your work, see what you've said about mine, and swap war-stories. This place in a nice retreat. I probably should get work done and earn my retreat more often, like tonight. Oh well.

Thanks again to everyone, and I'm making big efforts not only to put new work up, but also to comment on as much stuff as I can, both from people I know and those I don't. I have to say I enjoy sifting through the random view-all of a general browse. Quiet exhilirating.

Now... on to Dreams...